Alhamdulillah...aku bersyukur dengan nikmat yang telah Allah taala berikan sepanjang hidup ini. sejujurnya aku yg dulu tdk sekuat yg sekarang.. Bnyak perkara yg ku alami semasa zaman kecilku yg masih menghantui ku namun banyak memberi pengajaran kepadaku
di zaman persekolahan ku dulu (zaman sekolah rendah) tdk sentiasa seceria yg ku fikirkan..mngkin bgi org lain zaman kanak2 dulu best sebab ak perlu stress2, happy2 je main itu ini yg kengkawan but
for me im not 100% hav that thing or experience..this is because masa zaman sekolah rendah dulu
banyak org yg suka pandang rendah dgn aku..yes mmng masa aku sekolah rendah dulu aku selekeh, lambat pick up apa yg cikgu ajar ,.some people during my school days suka pandang rendah sama aku..but not all because aku bersyukur dgn kwn2 yg setia nk bersahabat dgn aku dulu that is shima, azlin, haryati, dn yg lain2..
jujur aku katakan certain people in my school days ada sedikit sifat "hierarki" means budak hot and pndai2 gaul sesama drg..ada sorang dlm klas aku ni masa 2 pintar dulu tu sllu di hina and di pndang rendah just sebab dia selekah and kurang pintar..dan org2 yg hina tu org hot and pandai dlm klas kmi tu..the most worst bila aku ni yg berturut2 dpt kelas ke-5 di sekolah tu tiba2 masa darjah "x" tu dpt klas pndai.. jujur aku ckp aku rela dduk kelas belakng..sbb masa masuk klas tu no one i hav to talk, to play and utk nk mnta ajar.. aku try gaul ngn dorang but only for a short time lepas tu drg lepak drg2 je and buat aku mcm halimunan dlm klas tu..Tuhan ja yg tau betapa aku rindu sahabat2 ku di kelas pintar yg dulu.. aku dduk di meja paling belakang dlm kelas..nasib la di meja tu ada 2 org gak join but that 2 person is awfull...sebab aku takda kawan langsung dlm klas tu drg nk aku join team drg so aku join ja..bila aku happy sikit sbb dpt kawan dlm klas tu my perception is broke..sbb drg suka ejek aku, and sometimes treat me like i hav no feeling at all. ,from that day, i start to be independent.. im all alone..study alonee...and for ur nformation pling teruk aku kena bila peperiksaan..sbb masa peperiksaan tu meja akan di pisah2 kn then aku dduk la blkng skli and kebetulan dpn ku masa tu lelaki and dia pengawas..abru ja aku dduk dia ckp cmni" ehhh sana2 ..aku ndk mau ko dduk di blkng ku"..ok fine .Aku pun pindah lagi ke tmtp lain..then i got the same comment ..in the end aku dduk ja blkng pengawas tu walaupun dia ndk suka...
another bad memories i hav dlm kelas "budak pandai2" tu bila aku dpt berkawan dgn beberapa org di dlm klas tu sbb drg yg approach aku suruh join genk dorang sbb drg selalu tngok ak sorang2..but aku berkawan dgn drg kejap ja disebabkan oleh ketidaksengajaan ku masa waktu pendidikan jasmani..masa tu kami main bola..aku pun main la bola dgn sorang ni...tiba2 kawan baru aku tegur dri blkng "siti kami nak bola" aku pn ckpla "kejap ya aku main skit lgi" dia trus blahh..aku blurr ja..bila tmat klas pj tu...kmi masuk kdlm classroom smula..then masa dlm klasroom tu dia ckp "siti pndah blikla ke tmpat mu di blkng tu,si ---- ndk mau kau di sni sdh" ..then aku pn mcm wow syiok drg layan aku mcm ptung teda perasaan...start from that day it make me afraid maw berkawan..but i gain my confident and strenght bila naik klas baru aku dapt kelas ke-4 from kelas no 1 yg hmpeh tu..bersyukur gila aku ..sbb kwn2 semua ok support each other and awesome....
now, im prove to myself that i can be a person that someone proud of and feeling lovely to be friend ..because now i found a very precious friend that appreciate me more than i think..thanks shima my chilhood friend from primary school till we success to university now u still there support me..thanks miani and haryati my dearly friend.. and My crazy girl ema,fara and jayjay..u all already like my family..and now found another precious friend when i step on umt at 2015 that is bibie, ika, kikin,fazira,shila,syidah and other for accept me for who i really are..
friends is not something that u value from beauty, popularity or money ..it from how u appreciate each other,help each other either in good or bad condition, friends is more valuable than gold,diamond, ruby or whatsoever.... so please appreciate your friend for who they really are..
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